Thursday, August 31, 2006

Pity on Barbie

OK yeah, August 8th was the last time I posted?! wow. Where did this month go? Seriously. The pace of my life these days is too much to keep up with, and it's kind of annoying. I feel like I never get a chance to
s l o w
d o w n
and just relax, take naps and do silly things that waste my time. Where did those days go?

Solid nights sleep is a rarity these days as well. Lately I either stay up way too late because I can't fall asleep, or I wake up at 5am and can't fall back to sleep, distracted and obsessed with my constant, never-ending list of All The Things I Have to Get Done. I've never been one to have difficulty sleeping. Usually, when my head hits the pillow it takes me no longer than 10 minutes to be deep in slumberland. I miss those days… I'm tired.

I stopped working for Azu Studios doing the guitar string bracelets - the pay was not good enough for the amount of work involved nor was the work consistent. So for the past month or so I've been working as a goldsmith for a woman in Manhattan who has started a line of high end designer jewelry (18k and gemstones) and am very pleased so far with this job, however, I work SO MUCH. It's hard to find time to work on my own jewelry. I still haven't finished the repairs or custom jewelry that I started at the beginning of the summer! I am FAR behind and I hate this feeling. It's like arriving late for something, you know it doesn't make you look good.

I need to find a balance between making ends meet by paying the bills with my current (supposed) "part-time" employment, meanwhile spending sufficient hours in continuing to develop my own business.

I wish there were more hours in the day.

PS. Thank you for the image - you know who you are ;-)


Liana said...

I know how you feel and I know a many others who feel the same.

For me it is balancing a family with making my work. I do think I make alot but at the moment (particularly) not enough, not the right work, I'm missing my own deadlines (online shop) and generally feel behind, exhausted and stressed.

Just this morning I've decided that I can't do it ALL and will adjust my goals and give myself some more REALISTIC ones. I think if you aim for something achievable - something that you CAN get done that day, that week, that month you can tick it off the list, feel a sense of achievement and hopefully get a good night's sleep.

Midge said...

Very good advice Liana. Breaking everything down into smaller steps and realistic goals is definitely helping me to feel less overwhelmed. I'm not there yet, but I'm in a better place than I was so that's a plus. Thanks for the encouragement!